After convo...

Time flies, just a blink of eyes, 4 years past just like that, the venue I've enter 4 years ago in utar, that is the place I end my utar life. Throughout this 4 years, it is a big turnover for my life, from a salty fish town boy become a city man, I've been through all the joyful and sadness moment in my universities life. Well, it's a great lesson for me, when you change from a dumb that always help people, used by people to someone who will think whether to help them or not, this is what realistic world offers. About my past relationship, I believe a lot of people will think that I'm cruel and mean but whatever people want to comment or talk about it, I would not care anymore, because you are not the one who dealing with it, you don't know how it hurts, just like when you're watching someone going to hurt themself, you tried to stop them but they don't give a damn, end up when they hurt came back and cried infront of you, what's the point, you don't need to tell others what you planning to do when you've been given a lot of chances. No more this type of relationship for me, you can claim that I'm realistic but the world is running like this, I do believe money is not everything last time, but I more believe in money is the only thing nowadays, money do can buy love, even true love needs money to support. After you started to work, you'll find out that how realistic this world is, even when they look at the car you drive, they'll know what is the proper way to deal with you, this is why, a lot of people drive big branded car but stay in single storey house, one word, packaging mah. All these years, I thought I deserve better in anything but no one can treat you better than yourself, by wasting money on something that none of your business, why don't start pampering myself, my new surround system, new suspension for my car, new car and new house in the future, I'm coming for you, one by one, beware!

Chinese New Year!

Time passed so fast, I've reached 24 this year in chinese calendar 25, today, one of my role model told me that I must do acca, if not I'll be an ordinary person without it, I really very struggle, don't know whether I can do it or not, if do it, must spend one and a half year more to complete it only can apply work, is a matter of time and money. Whether to take it or not, depends on this sem result. Besides that, is good to look at people face when they talk or act, within the thousand of seconds, u can see something very different with what they meant to act like, that milisecond is their true face n fucking face, haha. There is someone I really don't know want to say him is a fool, a kind hearted person or a fake person, because he or she did told me before that he/she fucking hate that particular person and god damn hate him, this is when that particular person torture he/she, but after few months he/she can act like nothing happen before, I really damn salute he/she, geng, I wonder how they can act like this, can't understand, well is another kind of personality to share, no offence, I really god damn like ur acting, can be drama king, even oscar king also can't beat u, 1000 thumbs up. Just to share, learn to look at the milisecond face, u'll discover lots of excitement, haha, fake but can be very kind to each other, haha, nice. Happy CNY, ciaoz!

沉默是金

「沉默是金」 歌词

曲：张国荣 词：许冠杰

夜风凛凛，
独回望旧事前尘，
是以往的我，充满怒愤，
诬告与指责积压着满肚气不忿，
对谣言反应甚为着紧。

受了教训，
得了书经的指引，
现已看得透，不再自困，
但觉有分数，
不再像以往那般笨，
抹泪痕轻快笑着行。

冥冥中，都早注定你富或贫，
是错永不对，真永是真，
任你怎说，安守我本份，
始终相信沉默是金。

是非有公理，
慎言莫冒犯别人，
遇上冷风雨休太认真，
自信满心里，
休理会讽刺与质问，
笑骂由人，洒脱地做人。

少年人，洒脱地做人，
继续行，洒脱地做人

Something to share...

I'm still in the corner of my exam while most of my friends having their holidays, it really sucks when someone enjoying but you're still suffering, have already taken 3 papers, 1st one is ok, 2nd one quite tough and the third one totally hopeless, if can get a D I'll be extremely happy, thanks to Kanasai set ACCA question in degree exam even president list student also don't have enough time to answer, how someone like me can pass? I really don't know what else I can do, if I give up now, all the hard work that I did for the past 3 years will be ruin just like that, no matter what I also need to continue. Sometimes is really quite annoying when you are having exam some asshole keep on disturbing you, I really don't like to argue with people but they make you no choice because what they did really piss you off, after what you said sure he'll have lots of excuse to protect himself, I mean everything, you really think that I'm going to believe what you said when not just one people said you did those thing, as a best friend or 10 years, maybe last time even how people talk bad about you I'll stand up and protect you, but I'm going to say it'll not be happen anymore, you've did lots of thing that make me fed up and feel like want to vomit when I saw your excuses. Since last year, I've told you, today Jacky Lim still scold you, you should be glad because I'll only scold those I treat them as friend, when I'm cool to you then I'm no longer treating you as my friend. One last word for you, do not think that you're the greatest or perfect in this world, you're not, there is no point showing other people how good you are, only retarded people will show others how good he is, and please do not envy others, set them as a role model is good but not envy how good they are, because you're totally different with them. Lastly, there are still two more paper for me, I'm going to try as hard as I can for this 2, thanks my mum very much for understanding me by not blaming me because can't answer well, really feel relief when she did not blame me, hope that there will be a better life for me after this final exam...

An astonishing birthday celebration!

First of all, I want to thank all my beloved friends who celebrate my 23rd birthday with me, 1294 members, T9 groupmates and especially my sweet ling ling. Thank you for the present that you all bought for me, the time you all contribute for the celebration, the cake and cream that makes me need to clean up for 15 minutes. To my sweet ling ling, thanks for doing so many things for me, the present and that night company me for so many hours, thanks. Besides that, after the celebration, I realize one thing if you be nice and treat others well, for sure they'll remember you unless that person is cold blood. This weekend go KL to fetch my grandma, hope that it is a nice trip, because can meet up with my beloved family, haha, looking forward for it, ciaoz...

23 years...

23 year old just left 20 minutes, what in my mind now actually is blank, just now wen to marketing t5 party, is good to see they have a party like that, all come together and have a meal and chat with each other. There is something I want to know so badly, about someone secret, actually I just don't know why I don't have the guts to ask, maybe I'm too scared about the result that might punch through my heart. When you have to choose between a BMW and Mercedes-Benz, it is really hard to make up your mind which one to go for, because they are quite similar with each other, BMW powerful, Mercedes nice in handling, which one to choose, I don't know, depends on my credit and the outlook and specifications that they have. I think I really need to choose one no matter what, you can't have both at the same time, I'll go for a Mercedes I think because it is more safe and better to handle than a BMW that can run so fast. There is someone I want to thank, who is my beloved bro-in-law and sis, thanks for the phone, I really love it, because both of you, my stress get lesser and less frustrated about my study. For my best friend Kenny, thank you very much for bringing me here and there while I'm in KL, we do have a nice chat together every night, a great pillow talk session, thank you. 10 minutes left, there are lots of people I've helped but most of them just forget what you did and even don't want to treat you as a friend anymore or change to another person, what I'm trying to say is when I help you all, I don't need you to pay me back in the future, what I want is just that you remember what a friend did when you have problem, please bear in mind, not many people will help when you ask, that's all, Happy Birthday to myself, ciaoz......

What should I say?

My birthday just around the corner, what I've been wishing for so many years I don't think this year will happen, maybe it is impossible for me to get this kind of experience. This few days really make me exhausted, still have 2 days to go, today already hit the board, because someone just keep on commenting on what we have done for a period of time, last time ask her, what also ok, now combine all of it, just said can't see any link this and that, why don't make it clear that time, just say ok, very good continue, haiz, sien. About university life, actually just enjoy during foundation, still remember that time our class so united, every week if afternoon no class sure go one u for pool and movie, up to degree, class does not like class, here one gang there one gang, last week went to taylors, 29 ppl become 13 to 14 ppl, damn sien, final year ady, why still want to play like this, it can be a nice trip for whole class, those ppl just like to divide themselves, I'm really tired to face u all in class with smiley face, I don't know what you all want actually. To Alex, I'm sorry because I upload that video but I think if I don't do it this time, ppl sure got many comment, just treat it as a revenge, no offence cz you use my hp to send I love u to someone, sorry. Nowadays I think that I've some mental problem, sometime I just can't control what to say, after split it out only realize, don't know is too stress or because of too frustrated about things happen around me, see some human change to dog and become another type of ppl. I hope that this week can enjoy to the fullest, that's all, birthday wish, not really want to make one due to all turns to another way round, bye!

18/07/2010

Today went Ipoh with Rent, Alex and Boss, we reach there around 9.40, we've watched Inception, it's a nice movie if you understand what they try to stress out, I was wondering that in this realistic world, is there any people that can do this kind of dream building and make that person to split his secret out in dream. After bought a pair of pants from PDI, we went to Nam Heong for white coffee and to have Alex dream food Char Kuay Teow, reach there around 2 met a friend that has been around 2 years did not see him Chris, chat a while then only knew that he has not being employed yet while she work almost 3 months, when I saw him just feel like why this world can be so small and made me think about her, if not because of Chris I won't met her or I don't even know who is she, time flies, I remember that 2 years before on 19th July, was our second date, that time both of us went to watch Tony Leung movie Red Cliff, I still remember she said, how you know I like Tony I've wanted to watch this movie, you really know what I think, after that we went to Itallianies and to ok few pictures after that, I still keep it till now, although she don't accept me, I've no regret because I tried before and we've nice date and I do enjoy the moment when she's with me. What I try to say is no matter how hard it is or how impossible you think that thing is, you should give it a try, do not give up easily, don't think about the outcomes, just enjoy the moment you try, that is it, still thinking whether want to attend her convocation or not, I've promised her few years ago, I don't want to break it, I'll try...

What I've been through in this year.

Last week, I went to KL with Kenny and Rent, I've enjoy as much as I can because this is what I can do to refresh myself, I really can't stand in Kampar anymore, really hate those feeling at Kampar. When you've found something that you want and approved by someone then suddenly got banned by an asshole, this type of feeling is what we call potong steam, I really fed up with that guy who banned our stuff, during his tutorial keep on teasing people and show himself like a pro, what the fuck, you think we are god is it know what the heck you want by just looking at that paper, what we can found all banned by you, if you're so good then help us find, don't just stand there keep on talking bullshit, luckily I can control myself, if not I think I'll whack you and throw you to the lake, knn.

Besides that, I really don't know how to become a proper leader already, what I said sometimes got banned, nevermind, when I ask what you all want, all can't answer me, do you all really know how frustrated are you when you squeeze your head and think about something but end up with regret, ask you all got what idea, you all say don't know, if you want to comment or ban someone idea, please think something better than me and split it out, don't just fart there, I feel so sick about it. Moreover, I tried to be a good leader, when you all feel stress try to jokes with you all but how you all response, the face black like charcoal and don't want to speak, you think I so free to be a joker is it, the one who make you all stress not me also, you want show that ass face show it to them, I'm not the one who should bear this type of thing from you all, I also got tempered not only you all have, I really don't know how to continue already, haiz.

Nowadays someone always post where are the good guys and why this world like no more good guy, I was wondering when someone treat you well, how you treat him, give him chance then take it back and stab him, he tried so hard just to let you know but you just ignore him, when you face problem only you find him, all these years he treat you well but do you think before what you've done to make him happy, you pass all your negative ion to him and now he become your clone, did you try to make him happy as what he have done to make you happy last time, even a single sms or call, you also don't want to send and make, what do you think?

About someone who post some shit on fb, indirectly shoot people, say people always give you rubbish, I was wondering how well you are, you're not a dean list or president list student, you just delete others assignment who put all his effort on just in one click, people got consult lecturer, if those thing really rubbish the lecturer also ban already, you always comment on others about they are freak, do rubbish, idiot and do secondary work, how about you then? You not just idiot, you're someone who even don't have a personality than a dog have, what your ass gf says you follow, told me how bad about others, just care about his gf and did not give a fuck to you, I think you're 100times stupid than him, the girl that don't want to admit her as your gf infront her family you also want, ask you can't go train station fetch your friend, you also did not try to help your friend, people help her keep clothes still need to get scold by her while she not paying for the water and electricity fees, what you told people, since she was young until now she is a princess, fuck you, who aren't a price or princess in their house, what kind of bullshit excuse you said, borrow printer from someone make the ink leak like hell but did not clean up, if I'm her I use knife stab you straight away, asshole.

Don't know why this world got so many rubbish like what I've mentioned, really feel like want to vomit, luckily I've enjoy my trip to the fullest by doing what I want and eat what I want, don't let me piss off, I don't know what the hell I'll do to you guys, rubbish.

一碗白飯 !

二十年前某日黃昏有名看似大學生的男孩徘徊在台北街頭的一家自助餐店前。等到吃飯的客人大都離開了，他才面帶羞赧地走進店裡。 「請給我一碗白飯。謝謝！」男孩低著頭說。

店內剛創業的年輕老闆夫妻見他沒選菜一陣納悶，卻也沒多問，立刻就盛了滿滿一碗的白飯遞給他。男孩付錢時不好意思的說了句：「我可以在飯上淋點菜湯嗎？」

老闆娘笑著答：「沒關係！你儘管用，不要錢！」

男孩吃飯吃到一半想到淋菜湯不必錢，又多叫了一碗。「一碗不夠是嗎？我這次給你盛多一點！」老闆很熱絡地回應。

「不是的。我要拿回去裝在便當盒裡明天帶到學校當午餐！」

老 闆聽了心想男孩可能來自南部鄉下經濟環境不好的家庭，為了讀書獨自一人北上求學，甚至可能半工半讀，處境的困難可想而知。於是悄悄在餐盒的底先放入店裡招 牌的肉燥一大匙，還加了一粒魯蛋，最後才將白飯滿滿覆蓋上去。乍看之下以為就只是白飯而已。老闆娘見狀明白老闆想幫助那男孩，但卻搞不懂為什麼不將肉燥大 大方方地加在飯上，卻要藏在飯底？老闆貼著老闆娘的耳說：「男孩若是一眼就見到白飯加料，說不定會認為我們是在施捨他。這不等於直接傷害了他的自尊嗎？這 樣他下次一定不好意思再來。如果轉到別家一直只是吃白飯，怎麼有體力讀書呢？」

「你真是好人。幫了人還替對方保留面子！」

「我不好，妳會願意嫁給我嗎？」年輕的老闆夫妻浸淫在助人的快樂裡。

「謝謝。我吃飽了。再見！」男孩起身離開。當男孩拿到沈甸甸的餐盒時不禁回頭望了老闆夫妻一眼。

「要 加油喔！明天見！」老闆向男孩揮手致意，話語中透露著請男孩明天再來店裡用餐。男孩眼中泛起淚光，卻也沒讓老闆夫妻看見。從此男孩除了連續假日以外，幾乎 每天黃昏都來，同樣在店裡吃一碗白飯，再外帶一碗走。當然，帶走的那一碗白飯底下每天都藏著不一樣的秘密。直到男孩畢業。

往後的二十年裡，這家自助餐店也不曾出現過男孩的身影了。某天將近五十歲的自助餐店老闆夫妻，接到市政府強制拆除違章建築店面的通告。面對中年失業，平日儲蓄又都給了兒子在國外攻讀學位，想到生活無依經濟陷入困境不禁在店裡抱頭痛哭了起來。

就 在這時一位身穿名牌西裝像是大公司經理級的人物突然來訪。「你們好，我是某大企業的副總經理。我們總經理命我前來，希望能請你們在我們即將要啟用的辦公大 樓裡開自助餐廳。一切的設備與食材均由公司出資準備。你們僅須帶領廚師負責菜餚的烹煮。至於盈利的部份，你們和公司各佔一半！」

「你們公司的總經理是誰？為什麼要對我們這麼好？我們不記得認識這麼高貴的人物！」老闆夫妻一臉疑惑。

「你們夫妻是我們總經理的大恩人兼好朋友，總經理尤其喜歡吃你們店裡的魯蛋和肉燥。我就只知道這麼多。其他的等你們見了面再談吧！」

終於那每次用餐只叫一碗白飯的男孩再度現身了。經過二十年艱辛的創業，男孩成功的建立了自己的事業王國 ，眼前這一切全都得感謝自助餐老闆夫妻的鼓勵與暗助。否則他當初根本無法順利完成學業。話過往事，老闆夫妻打算告辭，總經理起身對他們深深一鞠躬並恭敬地說：「加油喔！公司以後還須要靠你們幫忙。明天見！」

歡喜「施」，感恩「受」，人間處處有溫情。

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喜歡一個人是一種感覺。
不喜歡一個人卻是事實。
事實容易解釋，感覺卻難以言喻。
記住該記住的，忘記該忘記的。
改變能改變的，接受不能改變的。
失敗者找理由，成功者找方法。

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The end of short semester.

Time passed so fast, tomorrow is the last day of this semester, 7 weeks just passed like that, but this semester end with happiness and sadness. Happening stuff was my sister got married with my dearest brother in law and their wedding ceremony plus dinner was very happy because me and my brother go up the stage to sing song for them in Kuantan and Klang, we ate much nice food in Klang such as seafood and Bak Kut Teh makes me gain 2kg, now don't know how to reduce my weight. Sad stuff was something I've mentioned in the previous blog, one of our coursemate James drowned at a waterfall in Kampar, untill now everytime go lecture class also will thought about him because he really bring some funny jokes in the class, all his gestures and body languages just can remain in our memory, haiz. There is another thing I want to say, friendship, I don't know why some of them want to backstab people and keep on insult them, I know maybe they did something that you all hate but why don't you all think about yourselves whether you've done the same thing like they are doing, is hard to get together and know each other, I don't know why you all want to treat them like that, as what Buddha said we can meet each other because of fate if we have no fate we can't be friend. I really don't like what you all did to them, if you all really hate what they did, just tell them infront of them why want to backstab, you all won't feel tired, I'm sick of all those thing you all did, that's why I don't want to attend those gatering you all organized. It is time for me to study hard, wish that I can get better result for this sem, so that my GPA can increase, I'll update asap, bye.

9 November 2009, new blog in blogspot.

This is the 1st blogspot account for me, it has been a long time I did not post a blog, really don't know what to write but there is something I want to share with you guys. I think what happen in Kampar last weekend many people also know, there are 3 students from Utar drowned at Batu Berangkai waterfall, one of them, James is my friend, eventhough I am not that close with him but when I heard that he was drowned, my mind just blank for few minutes because I just met him 2 days before, that time he still play with me and clamp sis, really shocked it's just too sudden for us, someone that talk with you 2 days before can't talk with you anymore.

After this incidence, I've realised one thing, life is fragile, we really don't know what we'll be facing tomorrow, what we can do is try to care about what we have now, spend more time with family and friends, try to avoid argument, don't stress up so easily, I still remember a HK drama Mr Cai Gou said life got how many ten years, do not waste it with regrets, sometimes I really don't understand why still have so many people out there don't know how to care about what they have, end up with gossiping and arguing, how come they got so much energy to treat others like that, really don't know what they think.

Some of my friend they always worried about offending someone else or their gossips and keep on blaming themselves or make themselves stressed up, actually what people want to says about us we can't stop them, as long as we have done our very best to do that stuff, why do we need to care about someone that don't know how to appreciate our efforts plus keep on back stabbing us, I know is very suffer when you've done your very best then they did not do anything plus keep on blaming on you and back stab you, what can we do? If you end up with stress then you've dropped into their trap, when we face this kind of people do not stress up just pretend as nothing happen, wear a mask must be more fake than them, this is how you can survive in this realistic world.

Lastly, to those who I've offended, sorry, maybe last time my EQ was low and make you all fed up, start from now on, no more argue with you all, because I don't want my life end up with argument, remember treat those who care you better, we really don't know what will happen the next second, ciaoz!